I'm mentally exshausted after all the decisions I've made during this year so now I'm not able to manage through three different tasks simultaniously. Even if the tasks are something like - text clients about the schedule, buy some grocery and help mom with that thing she asked like a month ago. No, thank you, TOO MUCH
I feel tired when I think about all the things I WANT to do, things that aren't my duties. All the books I wanted to read, languages to learn (not like learn-learn, just pay attention and make a couple of exercieces from time to time), swimming pool, dancing classes, occacionally i think about sketching (it happens when I recall the years spent on my art educetion), finishing that short story with a genious idea and quite poor execuition.
How on earth is it possible to combine all of this with housechores and full time job? Oh, and also I have a naive dream about some kind of social life.
July was good because I didn't do anything - didn't work, didn't try to be creative
August was interesting because I had a rabbit i and was interested in my job (what a miracle!)
But now I'm exhausted. again.